Today was Joel's last day at work. They had a very nice farewell party, gave him some VERY nice gifts, tolerated our hyper-no nap children, and we spent a long time there today saying goodbye to Joel's fellow coworkers. We felt like it was the first stage of really saying goodbye. Joel really enjoyed his coworkers and it was a sad day. A few girlfriends have said to me this week "I can't believe this is one of the last things we are going to do together". I have pushed these thoughts out of my mind for so long that I feel I have put a wall up so that I don't have to deal with the emotions; scared that if I let them surface I will never be able to pull myself back together. I realize now that the "lasts" have started and don't think I will be able to keep the wall up much longer. Thank you to all who are making these lasts so very special.
Oh, Mary.
ReplyDeleteI am so sad for you. I remember what the "lasts" feel like. I said it then and I still feel it today, leaving Hawaii was harder than leaving home. I wish I could give you some great wisdom to make it easier, but there is none. Just hang in there and if I can do anything let me know.